Thursday, July 18, 2019

Does Everything Happen For A Reason?

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar.

A common life statement is, "everything happens for a reason." I question does everything happen for a reason. I have been unemployed since May 2015. Companies submit my application for permanent or contract positions. I had interviews. No offers.

Why am I unemployed? Is there a reason? I may find the reason after I begin working. I may find the reason after I achieve mature adult freedom. Why "may?" I may die tomorrow. I may never find a job. Its life. I may lack intelligence to find the answer. I may find the answer with dumb luck.

On the other hand, if my present life is my future life, then I rather close my eyes, stop breathing, and be somewhere else. There is no point living as a loser. There are no rewards being a loser. Life is unfair.

The People Are Lucky

I can give up life easily. How? I watch TV and play video games. I work at a dead-end retail job. Maybe I work as a manager for the extra money. Nobody cares in retail. I weigh at least 200 pounds eating too much processed foods. I avoid exercise. My clothes are tattered because I spend more money on sci-fi goods and less money on quality clothes. I have body odor because I exchange time taking care of my body for time playing more video games. People are lucky I avoid the loser life.

Misunderstood

My intuition tells me the people of the world believes I’m still the Raymond Mar between Oct 2008 and Sep 2014. I retired from anime in Sep 2014. No more anime conventions. No more wearing costumes. No more video games; however, I play a video game app on occasion. Watching television is minimized. No more Family Guy. Gym workouts are consisted. Eating processed foods and eating at restaurants are minimized. The world believes I'm the opposite of these.

I said good-bye to people holding me back. I learn new hiking and backpacking knowledge. My writing skills are improved. My reading speed is faster. I'm gaining strength. Intelligence is expanding. Wisdom is acquired daily. I'm one step closer to become a genius. I'm hungry for new adventures and new experiences.

There are different kinds of loneliness. My loneliness is misunderstanding. I have zero confidence people accept my corrections. I have zero confidence people want to understand. I don't trust the people with my feelings. The people are weak, unwise, and ignorant to hear me. The people reject the present Raymond Mar. They don't listen. Their minds are closed. They can't handle my truth.

I Do My Best

I motivate myself. Boredom is a life killer. I job search five days a week applying to contract positions and full time positions I qualify at least 50% of the requirements. I learn new job skills such as Python. I review existing job skills such as Excel and SQL. I learn JavaScript and CSS which I applied on my webpage Innovate Infinitely. I complete my responsibilities maintaining my household including cooking, cleaning, and washing clothes.

I'm doing my best. I really am. Honestly. Nothing is working out today. I'm not doing enough. Maybe something works out tomorrow. Maybe I find strong, wise, and smart people who handle my truth. Time is the ultimate judge. The future answers the question what I'm doing now is correct.

Update On A Past Blog

There are more reasons why people are quiet from Another Perspective On Quiet People on Feb 20, 2019. People have nothing to contribute. They are being a good listener. They are polite. They may be learning something new. Moreover, other people shouldn't take it personally people are quiet. We're currently nothing. We're currently nobodies. If the conversation is something we contribute, then maybe we speak. The quietness is small stuff. Let the quietness pass.

I repeat the quote from Plato, "Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something."

Saturday, July 13, 2019

Going Up Or Getting Better Am I?

I question my life. I'm getting smarter learning new job skills, reading books, and writing blogs. My health is good working out at the gym four days a week. I haven't been sick in 2019. I minimized eating processed foods. I rarely watch TV. I watch one or two movies a week. I sleep eight hours a night.

On the other hand, I'm unemployed long-term. My social skills are regressing. My relationships are diverging. It's the natural growing apart from my family and my friends.

Is my life getting better or getting worse? Is my life going up or going down? Honestly speaking, I'm one step closer to become a genius.

Thursday, June 27, 2019

Positives Sat Jun 8-Thur Jun 26, 2019

*Cleaned the house.

*Watched Four Weddings And A Funeral, Midway (1976), Gran Torino, and Jackie Brown movies.

*Played Mahjong Soul for the first time.

*Finished reading Guards! Guards! By Terry Pratchett and The Book Thief by Markus Zusak.

Saturday, June 8, 2019

Positives Sat May 18-Fri Jun 7, 2019

*Watched The Professional, To Catch A Thief, and We Were Soldiers movies.

*Finished reading The Color Of Money by Terry Pratchett.

*Replaced defective cell phone 64GB microSD card with a 128GB microSD card.

*Helped a family friend completed home improvements.

*Cleaned the ceiling fan with a ceiling fan brush for the first time.

*Ate at Super Duper Burger for the first time.

Saturday, May 18, 2019

Positives Tue Apr 23-Fri May 17, 2019

*Watched The Jerk, The Birdcage, and Sneakers (1992).

*Replaced my license plates due to wear.

*Purchased an emergency shovel for my car.

*Won Pandemic app game on all modes. I also purchased Poweramp music app.

*Ate Crunchmaster Multi-Grain crackers for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Positives Sun Mar 24-Mon Apr 22, 2019

*Refreshed my needle and thread skills repair my gym armband.

*Quick vacuum upstairs and downstairs and mop downstairs floors.

*Flashlight, first-aid kit, and smoke detectors checked.

*Watched Blockers (2018), Dodgeball, Cinderella Liberty, John Wick Chapter 2, and Iron Man 2.

*Cooked with McCormick's Perfect Pinch Garlic Pepper for the first time.

*Played Mahjong at a Japanese jansou or Mahjong parlor for the first time.

*Ate at Capers Restaurant for the first time.

*Updated my web page Innovate Infinitely.

*Ate Miss Vickie's Sea Salt kettle cooked potato chips and a ramen burger for the first time.

*Car wind shield crack repaired.

*Purchased Town & Country Living Passages comfort mat.

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Global Fatigue

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar. Finding Raymond Mar contains a personal blog entry.

We’re tired because there is too much to do. There is too much everything. There is too much same routines. Welcome to today's information age internet life. Life is too complex. Life requires more resources, more time, most cost. A rising tide raises all boats.

It's time to set limits. There is no more Superman. There is no more Superwoman. It's time for infinite delays. It's time for final endings. We need more retirements. We need to close more chapters. We need to find someone, something, anyone, anything . . . more people, more places, more responsibilities to set free. People are too busy. People are too tired. People must deactivate their automatic reactions. People need to take a breath. Regardless, time is the same. There are still 24 hours a day. There are still seven days a week.

Personal Blog Entry

I admit I'm tired. My life is the same since 2015. I'm unemployed. I live with my parents. I job search six days a week. I learn new job skills and review existing job skills five days a week. I have little friends. I workout at the gym four days a week. My leisure activities are working out at the gym, playing board games, reading books, cooking, maintaining a clean household, watching movies, and watching a little sports on TV.

I try to add variety. I'm not doing enough. My last vacation was September 2016. The last time I went hiking was October 2018 for which it was the only time I hiked in 2018. My priorities have been minimizing spending and maximizing finding a job. Boring. Tiring. When do I concede? When do I give up? When do I declare all hope is lost? It's a judgement call. It's possible I live at home where I grew up my entire life. I'm not the only person experiencing my current life situation.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Monday, February 25, 2019

Positives Wed Jan 30-Sun Feb 24, 2019

*Ate Kawai Kookie Kona Coffee Macadamia and Chocolate Chip Macadamia cookies and Ritz Whole Wheat crackers for the first time.

*Super Bowl LIII.

*Watched The Firm (1992) movie.

*Ate at Hokkaido Ramen Santouka restaurant for the first time.

*Interviewed for a Data Analyst contract for a company based in Great Britain.

*Finished reading The Swiss Family Robinson by Johann Wyss and The Fifth Elephant by Terry Pratchett.

Sunday, February 24, 2019

How Can I Be A Good Person When I'm Not Really A Good Person?

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar.

My current life is unequal to a good person. I'm currently living a loser life unemployed, live with my parents, few friends, and too much free time; however, most of my free time is spent on taking care of my parents, taking care of the house, exercising, learning new job skills, and job searching. Also, I live maintaining the minimums of a trouble-free life such as being a law abiding citizen, controlling my expenses, and behaving a mature adult.

I have been learning everything to be a good person. I made mistakes. I'm lucky I started learning from my mistakes when I realized I must grow up on Sat Oct 4, 2008. I experienced new experiences. I found new adventures. I acquired wisdom. Problems are being solved. There are no endings to all of the above--innovate infinitely. My brain absorbs new intelligence. I fight the struggles.

Innovating Common Knowledge Blogs Are Nothing

Today I feel my blogs are nothing. There is no value when a loser writes blogs. There is no creditability. There is no sincerely. There is no honestly. I never experienced what I blogged. There is no value.

I must be a winner to make everything correct. I need a break. I need an opportunity. I need a blessing. I need a chance. Good luck is coming soon. It's time for good fortunes. These are clique. These are true.

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Positives Sat Jan 12-Tue Jan 29, 2019

*Finished watching The Shield Season 4 and Season 5.

*Watched Napoleon Dynamite and Flashdance movies.

*Ate Oat Crunch Cinnamon Cheerios, Chocolate Belvita for the first time.

*Phone interviewed Business Analyst contract position.

*Cleaned the house.

*Played Solitaire card game with actual cards for the first time in a long time.

Saturday, January 12, 2019

Positives Sat Dec 8, 2018-Fri Jan 11, 2019

*Ate Maple Cheerios and Simple Mills Fine Ground sea Salt Almond Flour Crackers for the first time.

*Shaved with Harry's Shaving Gel for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Reinstalled Windows 7 on my laptop.

*Finished reading Carpe Jugulum by Terry Pratchett and The Firm by John Grisham.

*Finished watching The Shield Season 3.

*Watched Tron (1982) movie.

*Shined old arcade tokens to be used for board game counters.