Sunday, December 9, 2018

Is This My Life?

Blogger's note: I initially wrote the blog for my personal blog Finding Raymond Mar. An event which happened on Tue Dec 4 changed my mind. I choose to post today's blog at Innovating Common Knowledge titled First Time I Saw A Restaurant Close On Tuesdays and at Finding Raymond Mar titled Is This My Life? Today's blog is minimally edited for grammar.

2018 is over. I wanted to try a restaurant in another city for the first time. I was in the area on Tue Dec 4. The restaurant is closed on Tuesdays. Are you serious? The event summed my recent life. Bad luck. Bad timing. Misfortunes. Missed chances. Missed opportunities. Slipped through the cracks. Just one away. Every good moment there is an asterisk or fine print ruining the good moment; in other words, there is a "but" ruining the good. The world didn't come to an end when I get a sore throat, lose my computer data, minor back pain, miss a sale, or don't get the job. My life can't get worse spiritually speaking. I have shelter, I'm in good health, I have a desktop with internet access, and I live with minimal expenses. On the other hand, my life can get worse such as a car accident, cancer, a devastating earthquake, or being lost in the woods. I'm done with 2018. I'm frustrated what I can't control. Bad results happen. I'm frustrated what I can control I receive small rewards. I'm done controlling everything I can control. Life is unfair. I'm the unfortunate more bad moments than good moments.

2018 is the same as 2016 and 2017. All three are dull years. Ironically, 2018 is the fastest year. 2016 and 2017 were fast years, too. 2014 and 2015 were slower years for which they were better than 2016, 2017, and 2018.

Life itself takes over in 2019. I respond what life gives me. I go with the flow. I'm going back to the past when life controlled me. I follow life, destiny, fate, karma, and Act of God. I maintain being a good person--the same life I have been living hoping for the best. I continue self-responsibility. I experienced more good calendar years than bad calendar years when life controlled me. I have done everything I can do in my control. I have done everything life given me. I react. I try to be proactive if the situation calls. It's a judgment call.

It's not bullshit. It's the truth. It's reality. I receive feedback I'm not doing enough. I'm open to opinions. I receive any communication I'm not doing enough, I'm not focus, I'm not working hard enough, and/or I'm making bad choices. I'm past the clique advice. I'm past the common knowledge. I continue to be open. Tell me something new. I welcome new ideas. I ignore communications making the other person feel better taking advantage of my current depressed life.

2018 is the same as 2016 and 2017. I'm 99.99% confident there are other people living my similar life situation.

Living Solo Is Temporary

I take my chances living alone compared to being with people to avoid loneliness. Most of the people I said goodbye in past years dragged me down. There was no joy. There was no happiness. I felt routine being with these people. I was the lowest common denominator. One goal after I earned freedom is create new circle of friends to share life. We help each other live better lives. We help each other keep our life fresh.

Saturday, December 8, 2018

Positives Wed Nov 7-Fri Dec 7, 2018

*Watched The Wolf Of Wall Street and Terms Of Endearment movies.

*Created a paracord bracelet for the first time

*Ate Costco chicken bake and Costco artisan bread for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Black Friday 2018. I purchased Nike SB Bruin Max Vapor shoes, Castrol motor oil, Philips Norelco Multigroom 7000, Samsung 28" LED monitor U28E590D, Cheerios Maple flavor, Earth Therapeutics foot creams, and a Faberware parking knife. I also purchased Head & Shoulders shampoo.

*Finished reading Eric by Terry Pratchett.

*Auto maintenance: changed the oil, replaced air filter, replaced cabin air filter, and tire rotation & tire balance.

*Watched The Shield Season 3 episodes 1-7.

Saturday, November 24, 2018

My Life Is Like Norma Rae

I thought about my life today. My life is like the characters from the movie Norma Rae (1979). The movie is based on the true story of Norma Rae unionizing the textile mill she worked. The lead actress Sally Field won an Academy Award for Best Actress. The movie is also about blue collar workers living life with no purpose. They live life just breathing doing mostly mindless activities. Almost all of them have poor intelligence, weak motivation, and dull lifestyles. Almost all of them cherish quick leisure to forget their almost depressing life.

My 2018 Thanksgiving holiday is similar to Norma Rae. I have no stories to share. I have boring stories to share if anyone is interested. I have routine stories to share if anyone is interested. I have no purpose on Earth. I have no people to help live better lives. I have no people to help me live a better life. Everything I have been doing are mindless including Black Friday shopping for which 50% of my purchases are bare necessities, dinner with family for which most of the conversations lack intelligence or how the conversation is poor, and nothing new. The brief exception is teaching Hong Kong Mahjong for two hours. I'm tired living the same routine dull life since 2015.

Maybe I feel better when the Thanksgiving holiday is over. On the other hand, maybe I feel the same Norma Rae. My weekdays are job searching, cooking, working out at the gym, learning new job skills, reviewing existing job skills, reading books, and sleeping eight hours a night. I consider myself good intelligence, good motivation, and doing my best to keep my lifestyle active. It's difficult working hard for a fresh life without a job, a small circle of friends, bad luck, bad timing, too many distractions, and few opportunities.

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

Positives Sat Oct 13-Tue Nov 6, 2018

*Watched The Sum Of All Fears, Magnolia (1999), The Last Starfighter, Contagion, and IT (1990) mini-series movies.

*Finished Introducing Microsoft Power BI by Marco Russo and Albert Ferrari satisfactory.

*Ate Belgian Brothers Waffle Crisps for the first time.

*I voted.

*Showered with Old Spice Body Wash for the first time.

*Spot cleaned the house including moping the kitchen and entrance.

*Finished reading Wyrd Sisters by Terry Pratchett and City Of Thieves by David Benioff.

*Flashlight, first-aid kit, and smoke detector checked.

Sunday, October 21, 2018

I Was Good I Wasn't Great

I'm backing up my past Innovating Common Knowledgeblogs between Aug 2005 and Mar 2011. I realized scanning the early blogs I was a good person. I was an average good person. I wasn't great. I was the person who's likely you--the reader. I was the person who's waiting at the checkout line in a retail store. I was the person who's riding a public transit. I was the person working in a white collar job cubicle completing responsibilities.

Why did I not raise from average good to average great? I added the word "average" because highly likely we are the same. Almost all of us are average. Let's be honest. If we're great or if we're excellent, then we see our names in the newspapers. The answer to the question is I didn't get better. I didn't innovate infinitely. Today I'm innovating infinitely. I'm learning new job skills. I'm expanding my interests. I'm going back to 2008 months after I realized I must grow up on Sat Oct 4, 2008. There were rewards in 2009 when I became good. Unfortunately, there are no rewards currently. Not yet. The rewards are coming. I trust life helps me. I trust life rewards me soon.

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Positives Fri Sep 21-Fri Oct 12, 2018

*Watched The Exorcist and Cop Land movies.

*Phone interviewed Data Analyst position in Mountain View, CA.

*Cleaned the house.

*Ate Chef's Cut Real Jerky Co. and El Monterey Signature burrito for the first time.

*Hiked at Joaquin Miller Park for the first time. It was also the first time I visited the Oakland Hills.

*Installed a timer for the front door light.

Friday, September 21, 2018

Positives Sun Sep 2-Thur Sep 20, 2018

*Watched I'm Gonna Git Your Sucka, Don't Be A Menace To South Central While Drinking your Juice In The Hood, and The Gambler (1980) movies.

*Spot cleaned vacuuming downstairs, moping downstairs, and some rooms upstairs.

*Finished reading The Beach House by Jane Green and Men At Arms by Terry Pratchett.

*Ate at Pho Saigon Noodle House and Burger Barn restaurants for the first time.

*Ate Stubb's Original BBQ Sauce for the first time.

*Replaced my car's timing belt and water pump. Also, a radiator flush.

*Sold items on eBay.

*Applied headlight coating on my car's headlights. I purchased the coating at Winchester Auto Parts shopping for the first time.