Sunday, July 15, 2018

There Is A Reason For Everything In My Life

I have been unemployed for 1,170 days as of Sun Jul 15, 2018. Everything happens for a reason. Life has an explanation for everything. Maybe there is a reason for the four digit days unemployed. I'm catching up what I missed in my past before I realized I must grow up on Sat Oct 4, 2008. I continue catching up. I correct mistakes. I gain strength. I acquire intelligence. I experience wisdom. I'm paying back being naive before Sat Oct 4, 2008. I took life for granted. Life shut all my doors for 1,170 days. Can life shut all my doors permanently? Yes. Some people died living unfortunate lives. Life is unfair. People die everyday. If I die tomorrow, then I die working hard to open doors.

Trust life. Life tells me when I'm ready. Life flows with me. Life shows me the path. Life opens the doors. There are future days I connect the dots backwards telling my there were reasons I lived my past doors closed. My future answers my past. Life tells me the answer in time. Time is the ultimate judge.

Saturday, June 30, 2018

Positives Tue May 29-Fri Jun 29, 2018

*I voted.

*Made lemonade from scratch for the first time.

*Congratulations to the Golden State Warriors winning the 2018 NBA Finals.

*Ate Don Miguel mini tacos from Costco for the first time.

*Helped family friends paint inside their homes.

*Installed an LED light bulb in my bedroom for the first time.

*Finished reading Pyramids by Terry Pratchett and Practical SQL by Anthony DeBarros satisfactory.

*Watched History Of The World Part 1, Wayne's World, and Sicario.

*Cleaned bathroom, kitchen, entrance, and spot vacuumed downstairs.

*Visited the Japanese Garden in the City Of San Mateo for the first time.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Desperate For More Positives

I'm desperate for more positives. I'm desperate for new positives. I want to earn positives beyond movies, books, cleaning the house, and eating new foods for the first time. I want to earn new positives both quantitative and qualitative wise. My life currently sucks. My life is on pause. I'm experiencing more bad luck. I'm living a cursed life. My past years have been bad. I'm walking on the loser life line.

The paragraph above has some truth. I could be dumb. I could be weak. I could have chronic health problems. I could live a worse life. However, I count my blessings. I appreciate what I have. I make the best living in the present.

Have I thought about my fears? Yes. Have I thought about my fears being realized? Yes. My fears are living with my parents for the rest of my life, being unemployed, being lonely, not knowing what I'm going to do with my life and becoming a bad person. My fears are reality. My fears affect my life to the day I die. There are winners and losers. I'm with the losers.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Positives Tue May 8-Mon May 28, 2018

*Purchased an Anker flashlight for my car.

*Watched The Rainmaker (1997), Gridlock'd, Heavy Metal (1981), and Running Scared (1986) movies.

*Cleaned the house.

*Cooked pancakes for the first time. The pancakes are Kodiak I ate for the first time.

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

Positives Sat Apr 21-Mon May 7, 2018

*Purchased a rain jacket and backup hiking sandals.

*Drank La Croix sparking water for the first time.

*Applied Vanilla Bean Burt's Bees lip balm for the first time. Vanilla!

*Watched Out Of Africa (1985) and Mary Poppins movies.

*Purchased a Corsair MM300 gaming mouse pad and a Kensington Pro Fit wireless mouse.

*Finishedreading A Tale Of Two Cities by Charles Dickens.

*Ate at Peking Delight restaurant for the first time.

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Positives Mon Mar 26-Fri Apr 20, 2018

*Phone interviewed for a Data Analyst position at a medical start-up.

*Ate at Smashburger for the first time.

*Watched Clash Of The Titans (1981), Star Wars VIII: The Last Jedi, Footloose (1984) movies.

*Cleaned the house.

*Ate Oroweat Country Sweet Hawaiian bread for the first time.

*Flashlight and first-aid kit check.

Monday, April 2, 2018

What Is The Feeling For 2018? Good Or Bad Year

The end of each year I have a feeling which predicts the next year good or bad. The accuracy is good. Here is a table of past years which includes the outcomes as accurate and brief comments.

Year Feeling Next Year Accurate? Comment
2000 2001 Good Yes An event in San Francisco brought all my friends closer together a few more years. The idea "Innovate Infinitely" was created. Both happened in Sep 2000.
2002 2003 Good Yes My manager was fired for incompetence. I created an eBay account. I learned the importance of financial education. These three events happened in Fall 2002.
2003 2004 Bad No Initially, 2004 was a bad year. I realized 2004 was a good year blogged here.
2004 2005 Good Yes The Las Vegas trip in Dec 2004 was the moment which set up two more good years.
2005 2006 Good Yes 2005 was a year of many firsts which included a trip to Canada, a trip to Oregon, my first laptop, and an appreciation for classic rock.
2006 2007 Bad Yes Staff started to leave my company. No leadership. 2007 is the second worse year of my life; however, I have been questioning the degree of how bad.
2008 2009 Good Yes My life changed on Sat Oct 4, 2008 when I realized I must grow up.
2009 2010 Bad No 2010 was the second of four consecutive good years. Everyone was tired at the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010. The economy was in the Great Recession. 2010 was a slow start for many people.
2012 2013 Bad Yes My life began getting bad after the San Francisco Giants won the 2012 World Series.
2014 2015 Good Yes Going back to a white collar job in Nov 2014 opened my eyes how important reviewing existing job skills and learning new job skills continuously are important.
2017 2018 Bad ? I say with high confidence I felt no good feelings for 2018. As of the blog entry, I have been experiencing setbacks going backwards; for instance, I got sick for two weeks in Jan 2018.

We think about great successes are an accumulation of intelligent hard work. We think about catastrophes are an accumulation of many mistakes. Sometimes one positive discovery or one mistake can change a person's life. The events, the initiators, the beginnings, and the momentum starters are valid to start the new year on a good note or a bad note. A disaster may happen ruining a good year. Recovering from a bad start may or may not happen.

Continuing the 2017 and 2018 predicting a bad year, there is a chance 2018 is a good year. I changed my 2004 opinion from a bad year to a good year. I have been thinking about changing my 2007 opinion from a bad year to a good year because 2007 may have more good moments than bad moments. 2007 included a new job, my first car, and an introduction to tabletop gaming outside old school board games such as Monopoly and UNO. There were no events, initiators, beginnings, and momentum starters at the end of 2017. Time will tell how 2018 turns out.