Positives Tue Nov 5-Mon Dec 9, 2019

*Watched Running With Scissors, Flashpoint (1984), Tai Chi Master, The Basketball Diaries, Stripes (1981), and John Wick Chapter 3 - Parabellum.

*Washed with Nivea Rock Salts and Dove Shea Butter With Warm Vanilla body washes for the first time.

*Car maintenance: brake fluid bleed, smog check passed, and replaced tires with Michelin Defender.

*Purchased Kodiak casual dress boots.

*Ate Nature Valley Chocolate Pretzel Nut and Lightly Salted Fritos Corn Chips for the first time.

*Replaced new sink mat for the kitchen sink and new bathroom carpet for a bathroom.

*Cleaned the house.

*Sold my eBay auctions. The final item sold 11 months later.

*Black Friday: purchased underwear at Macy's; slippers, pajamas, and casual t-shirt for the house at Kohl's.

*Drank ginger beer made from Bundaberg for the first time.

*Finished reading Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire by J.K. Rowling.

*Installed new faucet in the kitchen for a family friend.

Positives Sun Oct 6-Mon Nov 4, 2019

*Watched Spring Forward (1999), Infernal Affairs (2002), Deep Impact, Tropic Thunder, and Enter The Dragon.

*Finished reading Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets by J.K. Rowling and Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban by Rowling.

*Washed with Dove body wash for the first time.

*Flushed my car's power steering fluid.

*Flashlight, first-aid kit, and smoke detector checked.

*Updated my web page Innovate Infinitely.

Positives Sun Sep 8-Sat Oct 5, 2019

*Watched Time Out or L'Emploi Du Temps (2001), Hard Boiled, High Noon (1952), For A Few Dollars More, The Shawshank Redemption, and Day Of Anger (1967).

*Changed my car's transmission fluid.

*Cleaned and mopped all except downstairs.

*Restored 2.5 inch HDD from my HP Compaq 8510p laptop.

*Finished reading Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's Stone by J.K. Rowling.

*Repaired house left side fence broken parts.

*Ate at Bear Bitez for the first time.

*Drank Alameda Point Craft Soda for the first time.

Positives Tue Aug 13-Sat Sep 7, 2019

*Finished reading Night Watch by Terry Pratchett and The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy by Douglas Adams.

*Watched Road House, The Deer Hunter, The Sting, and A Fistful Of Dollars.

*Ate Magnum ice cream, Belvita Cranberry Orange, and Quest Chocolate Chip Protein cookie for the first time.

*Purchased an emergency blanket from SQL.

*Ate at Which Wich, Rock 'n Rob's Famous Pacifica Burgers, and Angie's Pizza restaurants for the first time.

*Hiked Montara Mountain trail and San Pedro Valley Park in Pacifica, CA for the first time.

*Cleaned and mopped the downstairs.

Positives Fri Jun 27-Mon Aug 12, 2019

*Finished reading The Cay by Theodore Taylor, Moving Pictures by Terry Pratchett, Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng, and Night Watch by Pratchett.

*Ate at Darda Seafood Restaurant, Chicken Wow, and Kiraku Japanese Tapas restaurants for the first time.

*Watched Shallow Grave; Donnie Darko; The Good, The Bad & The Ugly; Escape To Witch Mountain; The Way We Were; Anchorman, The Legend Of Ron Burgundy; and V For Vendetta movies.

*Cleaned the house.

*Ate 12 Oats Bread and Tillamook Country Smoker Beef Jerky for the first time.

*Showered with Oil Of Olay Fresh Outlast body wash for the first time.

*Purchased an Oakland A's baseball cap because . . .

*. . . I watched an Oakland A's vs. St. Louis Cardinals baseball game.

*I have a new dentist.

Does Everything Happen For A Reason?

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar.

A common life statement is, "everything happens for a reason." I question does everything happen for a reason. I have been unemployed since May 2015. Companies submit my application for permanent or contract positions. I had interviews. No offers.

Why am I unemployed? Is there a reason? I may find the reason after I begin working. I may find the reason after I achieve mature adult freedom. Why "may?" I may die tomorrow. I may never find a job. Its life. I may lack intelligence to find the answer. I may find the answer with dumb luck.

On the other hand, if my present life is my future life, then I rather close my eyes, stop breathing, and be somewhere else. There is no point living as a loser. There are no rewards being a loser. Life is unfair.

The People Are Lucky

I can give up life easily. How? I watch TV and play video games. I work at a dead-end retail job. Maybe I work as a manager for the extra money. Nobody cares in retail. I weigh at least 200 pounds eating too much processed foods. I avoid exercise. My clothes are tattered because I spend more money on sci-fi goods and less money on quality clothes. I have body odor because I exchange time taking care of my body for time playing more video games. People are lucky I avoid the loser life.

Misunderstood

My intuition tells me the people of the world believes I’m still the Raymond Mar between Oct 2008 and Sep 2014. I retired from anime in Sep 2014. No more anime conventions. No more wearing costumes. No more video games; however, I play a video game app on occasion. Watching television is minimized. No more Family Guy. Gym workouts are consisted. Eating processed foods and eating at restaurants are minimized. The world believes I'm the opposite of these.

I said good-bye to people holding me back. I learn new hiking and backpacking knowledge. My writing skills are improved. My reading speed is faster. I'm gaining strength. Intelligence is expanding. Wisdom is acquired daily. I'm one step closer to become a genius. I'm hungry for new adventures and new experiences.

There are different kinds of loneliness. My loneliness is misunderstanding. I have zero confidence people accept my corrections. I have zero confidence people want to understand. I don't trust the people with my feelings. The people are weak, unwise, and ignorant to hear me. The people reject the present Raymond Mar. They don't listen. Their minds are closed. They can't handle my truth.

I Do My Best

I motivate myself. Boredom is a life killer. I job search five days a week applying to contract positions and full time positions I qualify at least 50% of the requirements. I learn new job skills such as Python. I review existing job skills such as Excel and SQL. I learn JavaScript and CSS which I applied on my webpage Innovate Infinitely. I complete my responsibilities maintaining my household including cooking, cleaning, and washing clothes.

I'm doing my best. I really am. Honestly. Nothing is working out today. I'm not doing enough. Maybe something works out tomorrow. Maybe I find strong, wise, and smart people who handle my truth. Time is the ultimate judge. The future answers the question what I'm doing now is correct.

Update On A Past Blog

There are more reasons why people are quiet from Another Perspective On Quiet People on Feb 20, 2019. People have nothing to contribute. They are being a good listener. They are polite. They may be learning something new. Moreover, other people shouldn't take it personally people are quiet. We're currently nothing. We're currently nobodies. If the conversation is something we contribute, then maybe we speak. The quietness is small stuff. Let the quietness pass.

I repeat the quote from Plato, "Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something."

Going Up Or Getting Better Am I?

I question my life. I'm getting smarter learning new job skills, reading books, and writing blogs. My health is good working out at the gym four days a week. I haven't been sick in 2019. I minimized eating processed foods. I rarely watch TV. I watch one or two movies a week. I sleep eight hours a night.

On the other hand, I'm unemployed long-term. My social skills are regressing. My relationships are diverging. It's the natural growing apart from my family and my friends.

Is my life getting better or getting worse? Is my life going up or going down? Honestly speaking, I'm one step closer to become a genius.

Positives Sat Jun 8-Thur Jun 26, 2019

*Cleaned the house.

*Watched Four Weddings And A Funeral, Midway (1976), Gran Torino, and Jackie Brown movies.

*Played Mahjong Soul for the first time.

*Finished reading Guards! Guards! By Terry Pratchett and The Book Thief by Markus Zusak.

Positives Sat May 18-Fri Jun 7, 2019

*Watched The Professional, To Catch A Thief, and We Were Soldiers movies.

*Finished reading The Color Of Magic by Terry Pratchett.

*Replaced defective cell phone 64GB microSD card with a 128GB microSD card.

*Helped a family friend completed home improvements.

*Cleaned the ceiling fan with a ceiling fan brush for the first time.

*Ate at Super Duper Burger for the first time.

Positives Tue Apr 23-Fri May 17, 2019

*Watched The Jerk, The Birdcage, and Sneakers (1992).

*Replaced my license plates due to wear.

*Purchased an emergency shovel for my car.

*Won Pandemic app game on all modes. I also purchased Poweramp music app.

*Ate Crunchmaster Multi-Grain crackers for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

Positives Sun Mar 24-Mon Apr 22, 2019

*Refreshed my needle and thread skills repair my gym armband.

*Quick vacuum upstairs and downstairs and mop downstairs floors.

*Flashlight, first-aid kit, and smoke detectors checked.

*Watched Blockers (2018), Dodgeball, Cinderella Liberty, John Wick Chapter 2, and Iron Man 2.

*Cooked with McCormick's Perfect Pinch Garlic Pepper for the first time.

*Played Mahjong at a Japanese jansou or Mahjong parlor for the first time.

*Ate at Capers Restaurant for the first time.

*Updated my web page Innovate Infinitely.

*Ate Miss Vickie's Sea Salt kettle cooked potato chips and a ramen burger for the first time.

*Car wind shield crack repaired.

*Purchased Town & Country Living Passages comfort mat.

Global Fatigue

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar. Finding Raymond Mar contains a personal blog entry.

We’re tired because there is too much to do. There is too much everything. There is too much same routines. Welcome to today's information age internet life. Life is too complex. Life requires more resources, more time, most cost. A rising tide raises all boats.

It's time to set limits. There is no more Superman. There is no more Superwoman. It's time for infinite delays. It's time for final endings. We need more retirements. We need to close more chapters. We need to find someone, something, anyone, anything . . . more people, more places, more responsibilities to set free. People are too busy. People are too tired. People must deactivate their automatic reactions. People need to take a breath. Regardless, time is the same. There are still 24 hours a day. There are still seven days a week.

Personal Blog Entry

I admit I'm tired. My life is the same since 2015. I'm unemployed. I live with my parents. I job search six days a week. I learn new job skills and review existing job skills five days a week. I have little friends. I workout at the gym four days a week. My leisure activities are working out at the gym, playing board games, reading books, cooking, maintaining a clean household, watching movies, and watching a little sports on TV.

I try to add variety. I'm not doing enough. My last vacation was September 2016. The last time I went hiking was October 2018 for which it was the only time I hiked in 2018. My priorities have been minimizing spending and maximizing finding a job. Boring. Tiring. When do I concede? When do I give up? When do I declare all hope is lost? It's a judgement call. It's possible I live at home where I grew up my entire life. I'm not the only person experiencing my current life situation.

Positives Mon Feb 25-Sat Mar 23, 2019

*Watched John Wick, Tough Guys, and D.A.R.Y.L. movies.

*Cleaned the house.

Positives Wed Jan 30-Sun Feb 24, 2019

*Ate Kawai Kookie Kona Coffee Macadamia and Chocolate Chip Macadamia cookies and Ritz Whole Wheat crackers for the first time.

*Super Bowl LIII.

*Watched The Firm (1992) movie.

*Ate at Hokkaido Ramen Santouka restaurant for the first time.

*Interviewed for a Data Analyst contract for a company based in Great Britain.

*Finished reading The Swiss Family Robinson by Johann Wyss and The Fifth Elephant by Terry Pratchett.

How Can I Be A Good Person When I'm Not Really A Good Person?

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at Innovating Common Knowledge and at Finding Raymond Mar.

My current life is unequal to a good person. I'm currently living a loser life unemployed, live with my parents, few friends, and too much free time; however, most of my free time is spent on taking care of my parents, taking care of the house, exercising, learning new job skills, and job searching. Also, I live maintaining the minimums of a trouble-free life such as being a law abiding citizen, controlling my expenses, and behaving a mature adult.

I have been learning everything to be a good person. I made mistakes. I'm lucky I started learning from my mistakes when I realized I must grow up on Sat Oct 4, 2008. I experienced new experiences. I found new adventures. I acquired wisdom. Problems are being solved. There are no endings to all of the above--innovate infinitely. My brain absorbs new intelligence. I fight the struggles.

Innovating Common Knowledge Blogs Are Nothing

Today I feel my blogs are nothing. There is no value when a loser writes blogs. There is no creditability. There is no sincerely. There is no honestly. I never experienced what I blogged. There is no value.

I must be a winner to make everything correct. I need a break. I need an opportunity. I need a blessing. I need a chance. Good luck is coming soon. It's time for good fortunes. These are clique. These are true.

Positives Sat Jan 12-Tue Jan 29, 2019

*Finished watching The Shield Season 4 and Season 5.

*Watched Napoleon Dynamite and Flashdance movies.

*Ate Oat Crunch Cinnamon Cheerios, Chocolate Belvita for the first time.

*Phone interviewed Business Analyst contract position.

*Cleaned the house.

*Played Solitaire card game with actual cards for the first time in a long time.

Positives Sat Dec 8, 2018-Fri Jan 11, 2019

*Ate Maple Cheerios and Simple Mills Fine Ground sea Salt Almond Flour Crackers for the first time.

*Shaved with Harry's Shaving Gel for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Reinstalled Windows 7 on my laptop.

*Finished reading Carpe Jugulum by Terry Pratchett and The Firm by John Grisham.

*Finished watching The Shield Season 3.

*Watched Tron (1982) movie.

*Shined old arcade tokens to be used for board game counters.