Thursday, May 25, 2017

Positives Fri May 5-Wed May 24, 2017

*Finished reading Slaughter House-Five by Kurt Vonnegut and The Wonderful Wizard Of Oz by L. Frank Baum books.

*Shopped at Dollar Store for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Automobile maintenance: fuel injection cleaner, oil change, tire rotation, tire balance, and alignment check.

*Ate Tastykake cupcake and chewed Orbit gum for the first time.

*Post gallbladder surgery living a normal life. Jogging on the treadmill, lifting weights on machines, and riding on a lifecycle.

*Showered with Nivea Cool Body Wash for the first time.

*Watched A Fish Called Wanda, Clueless, Jack Reacher: Never Go Back, and The Revenant (2015) movies.

*Applied Refresh Tears Eyedrops for the first time.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Positives Mon Apr 17-Thur May 4, 2017

*Ate Voodoo Doughnuts, Trader Joe's Ultimate Vanilla Wafers, and Trader Joe's Crispy Oatmeal Chocolate Chip cookies for the first time.

*Post gallbladder surgery living a normal life. Drove my car, exposure to sunshine, and working out at the gym light workouts.

*Applied Pond's Dry Skin Cream on my face for the first time.

*Finished reading Do Androids Dream Of Electric Sleep by Philip K. Dick.

*Watched A Few Good Men, Courage Under Fire, and Mississippi Burning movies.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really III

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

No more advice. I heard everything. No more telling me because it's highly likely I already know. I'm frustrated when I heard the same lectures I feel I'm a failure because I'm not independent. Change the subject. End the conversation. My ears are open to new ideas. I listen to fresh knowledge. Give me leads.

My life has been the same. I'm still unemployed. I'm still living at home. I'm doing the best I can. I really am. God is my witness. I job search two times a day five days a week. I used to job search six days a week. The Sat search saved little time. I continue learning Python. I continue reviewing my existing skills. Currently, I'm reviewing SQL. I take personal responsibility 24/7.

The late Steve Jobs said, "Keep looking. Don't settle."

My feelings are the same: sacrifice, nothing to lose attitude, going out of my comfort zone, willpower, and not giving up. It has been difficult finding opportunities going out of my comfort zone because I have been indoors more hours per week honestly speaking. No more data entry. I worked data entry hoping those jobs catapult me to higher positions. Failed. My life can't get worse.

I work hard intelligently working my way to live independently. I'm stronger with the pains of rejection. I'm wiser with the mistakes I learn. My brain grows bigger with new knowledge. Each day is devoted to be a good productive day. I trust what I'm doing today benefits me tomorrow.

Furthermore, I'm lucky. I have shelter in my parent's house. I have a solid desktop to job search, learn new skills, and review existing skills. I'm in good health. My gym is 2.5 miles from my house. I minimize expenses. Money is a lower concern. I pace myself. I read books, watch movies, and sleep eight hours a night. I complete my house chores such as cleaning, cooking, and laundry.

Finally, there is more working hard intelligently after I fulfill independence. There are more people to meet. There are more adventures to seek. There are more experiences to experience. Never take life for granted. Never stop learning, training, and reviewing. I never stop innovating my life.

Side note: The first time I wrote I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really was on Oct 8, 2012. The second time I wrote I'm Doing The Best I Can, Really II was on Apr 6, 2016.

Monday, April 17, 2017

Positives Thur Mar 16-Sun Apr 16, 2017

*Finished reading The Bridges Of Madison County by Robert James Waller, The Reader by Bernhard Schlink, and The Red Badge Of Courage by Stephen Crane.

*Freakonomics podcast marathon.

*Drank Waiakea Hawaiian volcanic water for the first time.

*Watched The Accountant, Singles (1992), and Sixteen Candles movies.

*Successful surgery for acute gallstone pancreatitis. Endoscopic Retrograde Cholangio Pancreatography (ERCP) and Laparoscopic Cholecystectomy.

*Microwaved instant oatmeal for the first time.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Positives Mon Feb 27-Wed Mar 15, 2017

*Drank Ghirardelli Hot Coca with Chocolate Chips for the first time.

*Watched Annie Hall, Balls Of Fury, The Black Hole, Moaha, and The Sound Of Music movies.

*Ate yogurt at Penny Lane Frozen Yogurt & Candy and dinner at May Flower Restaurant for the first time.

*Updated my webpage Innovate Infinitely.

*Cleaned the house.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Don't Be Me

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

We've been told to like ourselves. Great. There are parts of our lives we dislike. I accept. Here are parts of my life I don't want other people to be. I also share what I'm doing to turn around my dislike to like. Don't live my life I did in my past. I admit today's blog is another "don't make the same mistakes as me" blog. I remind myself as repetition; don't make these mistakes again.

1. Living at home with my parents. I remember reading a college graduating speech saying live with your parents as long as you can. I accepted the bad advice. A person knows the time to move out is when the person becomes an adult. Independence is achieved when a son or daughter moves out of the house. Become independent naturally; however, don't rush being independent. I became an adult too late in my life. I'm a late bloomer. I'm preparing my moving out when my opportunity comes.

2. Unemployed too many times. I worked in Commercial Real Estate for 8.5 years. High job security. Low career advancement. I failed to learn new skills during the 8.5 years. I learned small skills here and there. Those small skills were weak transferrable skills. The best way to minimize unemployment is learn new job skills indefinitely. I learned the lesson in Aug 2014. Job searching is a full time job. I learn new job skills such as Python and Tableau and I review existing job skills such as Excel and SQL when I'm not job searching.

3. Small circle of friends. Call my circle small. Call my circles few. There are too few people in my life. I need more friends. I need more contacts. I said goodbye to some people because I must move on. Some people held me back. Some people and I diverge to different paths. People come and go naturally in our lives. People change as time moves forward. Meet new people continuously. Make new friends continuously.

4. Expand yourself. My mind was closed most of my life when I was introduced to something new or I discovered something new for which I ignored. I opened my mind for the first time in Oct 2008. The world is full of interesting which must be discovered. Keep an open mind when introduced to new hobbies. Hobbies come and go like people. Some hobbies we lose interest naturally. Some hobbies we grow out. Some hobbies we discover new they're better than existing hobbies. Hobbies, interests, experiences, adventures, and people all belong to expand yourself. Get up and do something, anything.

5. Desire more important than knowledge. I was raised to be a smart person. High GPA is important. A's are important. Know everything. Making mistakes mean I'm a stupid person. They're all incorrect. I recently discovered desire or motivation is more important than a high IQ. My desire is the reason I'm learning new skills I never thought I learn which are Python, JavaScript, and CSS. Nobody knows the future. One of these days the new skills help me become successful. Never stop learning. Never stop innovating. Innovating infinitely. The last three sentences are motivating me to learn. Nobody needs to be smart to motivate oneself to be a better person.

Side note: Here's the top mistakes blog I wrote in my Finding Raymond Mar blog titled Top Mistakes The Final Part. Click the label "Top Mistakes" below to read my top mistakes blogs.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Positives Sun Jan 29-Sun Feb 26, 2017

*Watched The Goodbye Girl, Henry & June, The Bridge On The River Kwai, and In The Heat Of The Night movies.

*Finished reading The Little House On The Prairie by Laura Ingalls Wilder.

*Super Bowl LI.

*Completed BTD5 maps.

*Sold my eBay auctions.

*Ate at Bill's Cafe for the first time.

*Happy Chinese New Year, the year of the rooster.

*Ate Belvita Sandwich Vanilla Yogurt Creme for the first time.

*Phone interviewed a Business Analyst position.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Anti-Social For The First Time

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

I feel anti-social today and yesterday for the first time in my life. I never believed people can be anti-social. People can be alone to take a break from being with people. People can't be alone to avoid human contact. I'm incorrect. People can be alone to avoid human contact.

I believe I'm anti-social for the entire week. I had trouble sleeping Sun Feb 12. I thought my trouble was drinking Coke and an adrenaline rush--Coke and adrenaline are a bad mix. Today's blog questions the Coke and adrenaline. I workout at the gym yesterday and earlier today only. I didn't workout most of the weekdays. I didn't learn Python and JavaScript the entire work week. I did review Excel and VBA earlier today before going to the gym. I job searched inconsistently. The bottom line is I'm not being myself.

Why do I feel anti-social? Can it be a chemical imbalance? Can it be a hormone imbalance? My brain messes up my feelings. I'm not a psychologist. My answers are yes. Also, I have thought about me being a failure. I'm doing my best to find a job, meet new people, and live independently. None of the three exist. I ask myself what am I doing wrong? Sometimes I answer I'm doing everything correctly. I'm strengthening my resume learning new job skills. I job search two times a day five days a week. I workout at the gym four or five days a week. Sometimes I answer I'm a failure. Almost all the people I know have jobs, live independently, and have a social life. They're mature adults living independently. I want to stay away from them. It's not their fault I feel anti-social. I feel like a failure when I'm in their presence.

Today's blog is an example I'm a human being. Feeling anti-social is temporary. I continue holding on. I hope next week I'm myself again. Life flows my way soon.

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Positives Mon Dec 26, 2016-Sat Jan 28, 2017

*Watched Star Trek: Beyond, Home, Bridesmaids, and Wreck It Ralph.

*Brushed my teeth with the Philips SonicCare for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Cleared the A/C drain which was clogged in my car.

*Slept with a Sleep Right Dental Guard for the first time.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

What Are You Tired?

I'm tired having bad luck, bad timing, and life beyond my control. I'm tired life treats me unfairly. I'm answering the question the clearest I can answer. There is no worry. I continue moving forward. I continue living life intelligently pursuing happiness. I express my frustrated feelings tonight.