Saturday, February 18, 2017

Anti-Social For The First Time

Blogger's note: Today's blog is posted at both Innovating Common Knowledge and Finding Raymond Mar.

I feel anti-social today and yesterday for the first time in my life. I never believed people can be anti-social. People can be alone to take a break from being with people. People can't be alone to avoid human contact. I'm incorrect. People can be alone to avoid human contact.

I believe I'm anti-social for the entire week. I had trouble sleeping Sun Feb 12. I thought my trouble was drinking Coke and an adrenaline rush--Coke and adrenaline are a bad mix. Today's blog questions the Coke and adrenaline. I workout at the gym yesterday and earlier today only. I didn't workout most of the weekdays. I didn't learn Python and JavaScript the entire work week. I did review Excel and VBA earlier today before going to the gym. I job searched inconsistently. The bottom line is I'm not being myself.

Why do I feel anti-social? Can it be a chemical imbalance? Can it be a hormone imbalance? My brain messes up my feelings. I'm not a psychologist. My answers are yes. Also, I have thought about me being a failure. I'm doing my best to find a job, meet new people, and live independently. None of the three exist. I ask myself what am I doing wrong? Sometimes I answer I'm doing everything correctly. I'm strengthening my resume learning new job skills. I job search two times a day five days a week. I workout at the gym four or five days a week. Sometimes I answer I'm a failure. Almost all the people I know have jobs, live independently, and have a social life. They're mature adults living independently. I want to stay away from them. It's not their fault I feel anti-social. I feel like a failure when I'm in their presence.

Today's blog is an example I'm a human being. Feeling anti-social is temporary. I continue holding on. I hope next week I'm myself again. Life flows my way soon.

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Positives Mon Dec 26, 2016-Sat Jan 28, 2017

*Watched Star Trek: Beyond, Home, Bridesmaids, Wreck It Ralph,

*Brushed my teeth with the Philips SonicCare for the first time.

*Cleaned the house.

*Cleared the A/C drain which was clogged in my car.

*Slept with a Sleep Right Dental Guard for the first time.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

What Are You Tired?

I'm tired having bad luck, bad timing, and life beyond my control. I'm tired life treats me unfairly. I'm answering the question the clearest I can answer. There is no worry. I continue moving forward. I continue living life intelligently pursuing happiness. I express my frustrated feelings tonight.

Monday, December 26, 2016

Positives Wed Nov 30-Sun Dec 25, 2016

*Cleaned the house.

*Watched The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2 and The Imitation Game.

*Purchased Tommy Hilfiger underwear and Macally car suction holder for my phone.

*Checked flashlight batteries, first-aid kit, and smoke detectors.

*Interviewed for a contract analyst position.

*Finished reading 20,000 Leagues Under The Sea by Jules Verne and The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett.

*Ate at Rose Cafe & Donuts restaurant for the first time.

*Ate Tiny Toast Strawberry cereal for the first time.

*Merry Christmas.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Positives Mon Nov 7-Tue Nov 29, 2016

*I voted.

*Watched Raging Bull, American Gigolo, "10", and Fight Club.

*Finished reading All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr.

*Happy Thanksgiving!

*Black Friday purchases included The Wizard Of Oz DVD, pole caddy shower shelf, NERF Alpha Trooper CS-6 gun, Ryobi 40V cordless jet fan blower, and shower bare necessities.

Monday, November 7, 2016

Positives Mon Oct 17-Sun Nov 6, 2016

*Watched The Omega Man (1971), Shaun Of The Dead, The Right Stuff, and American Graffiti movies.

*Cleaned the house spot clean.

*Ate Artesano Bread for the first time.

*Updated my web page Innovate Infinitely.

*Rearranged parts of my room which included spot cleaning and dusting.

*Phone interviewed for a sales analyst job.

*Kickstarter Mimoodz light bulb and Luxor 2 flashlight arrived.

*Showered with Nivea Power Refresh 3 In 1 for the first time.

Monday, October 17, 2016

Positives Thur Sep 29-Sun Oct 16, 2016

*Repaired sunglasses mailing it to the company to install new temples.

*Purchased new Bosch Excel+ wiper blades at Pep Boys online website using a 30% off coupon and pickup at a store.

*Watched The Full Monty and Dawn Of The Dead (1978) movies.

*Watched San Francisco 49ers vs. Arizona Cardinals at Levi's Stadium.

*Used my Clipper Card to ride light rail for the first time.

*Ate garlic tater tots for the first time.

*Mapped my hike using Map My Hike app for the first time. I hiked at Castle Rock. I hiked parts of Summit trail visiting Summit Rock for the first time.

*Kickstarter Joking Hazard Cyanide & Happiness card game arrived.